Transformasi Diri

Virgo itu aku! VIA!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t to all of Muslim readers and hello to everyone!

Dah lama sangat tak tulis blog kan... rindu... tapi ye lah kan, dah busy. tambahan lagi malas. HEEE! anyhow, i really miss writing what been inside my heart, my mind dan segala macam yang terpendam. tetiba lah pulak kan nak make a post ni. maybe its time. HEEE! sorry lah ye pada yang setia membaca post2 saya tu (termasuk pembaca2 blog saya yang lama tu).

Topik malam ni (its actually late night right now) is the one that i have been thinking lately. it is about the change, perubahan kepada diri kita terutamanya saya. Setahun lebih lah juga saya tinggalkan dunia blogging ni; within that period of time lah jugak saya rasa diri saya berubah lebih dari 40% of my old life (ni kira kehidupan baru lah tapi bukan beerti dah kahwin atau punya anak ye).

During that year, I was suffering from breakups, travelling to other sides of my world, trying hard living alone and making myself to do some chores. Dan semua perkara ini lah yang mengajar dan mendidik as well as memberi dorongan dan pengajaran kepada diri saya. Satu TRANSFORMASI DIRI yang bagi saya is one of the best things in my whole life so far. In shaa Allah, saya akan blog lebih mendalam about all those things that happened to me: pengembaraan, perubahan dan pendidikan.

So, I would end this post at this point of my last word: kehidupan kita merangkumi pelbagai 'stages'. ada yang gembira, sedih, tua, muda, miskin mahupun kaya. it depends on how we ourselves live in that certain stage. walau apapun, appreciate that stage. move on and transform.

Tahun Baru Azam Baru

Virgo Itu Aku! VIA!

Assalamualaikum. Harap2 tak lama sangat, hanya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Tahun Baru Masihi 2012. Everyone, every new year, memang ada azam baru. Iya lah kan, nak menjadi kan diri lebih baik. So my new resolution is biarlah rahsia~ HEEE. I know it seems really hard to achieve it but hey belum try belum tahu. Orang putih kata no pain no gain. =) Sesuka hati aku jerrr. Tak tahu betul ke tak. -.-"

Di samping itu juga, I just want to apologize to each one of you due to lack of updates. My last semester in uni was really the toughest so far. But, Alhamdulillah I did scored good grades. Harap2 this semester lebih bagus dari yang sebelumnya. Amin.

Forget about last year's topics, let's talk about this year. 5 days have passed, enjoying much but tiring. The first day of new year saya gaming dan karaoke dengan teman sejati Drownersz, Safwan. Screamed out really loud, mesti pecah telinga teman saya tuh. HEEE. sorry dude. 2nd of January, saya dan family picnic kat Pantai Serasa bersama cousins. Three words for that day: hot, fun and injured. The next day saya pergi uni nak register modules for this semester. I registered 5 modules again. Memang tak serik2 langsung. Hopefully, i am able to manage my time this time. Dan hari2 seterusnya memang happy tapi as I said tiring. Also, congratulation to my ayang and her family for the opening of warung impian mak dia. Mudahan sentiasa maju dan berjaya. Amin ya rabbal alamin. Laksa dia memang terbaik wehhh. Tak percaya, pergi sendiri dan rasa.

Lastly, nak tahu apa dia azam baru saya? Meh sini tengok gambar2 kat bawah. The hints are there. Think deep and wise. =) My last word for this post: You live once and die once, at least make one thing that you really want for your life, happens and comes true. Do whatever it takes cus in the end it feels like a paradise. ^^


*ALERT: gambar2 di bawah mungkin membawa maut kepada abiskita. =/ (click to enlarge) *ketawa tak siuman dan senyum kambing tua*

Bila Tuhan memanggil mu

Virgo Itu Aku! VIA!

Semalam aku menerima satu shocking news. I was really shocked. My uncle had just passed away. So we went to his house. Di situ lagi saya rasa sebak melihat orang2 yang dikenali diselubungi kesedihan. Ya Allah, aku cuma mampu melihat sambil itu aku terkenang masa2 bersamanya. Even though, I had little times with mulah Uda but i must say it were happy times. I am a loner. Saya memang suka menyendiri. Especially kat tempat2 yang saya tak biasa. I'm not comfortable with my mom's family and siblings. Perhaps I didnt try enough to blend with them.

Uda memang baik hati. At times I'm alone in any events, he's the one who will approach and talk to me. Asked me the same things every time we met. Dia akan tanya about my age, my study and about my brother who rarely to come at an event. Bila terkenang perkara ni, I'm really sad. However, I must not be sad. Ada juga saya terbaca satu article. Don't be sad akan kematian seseorang. Kita harus redha dengan pemergian nya. Jangan buat si mati seksa. Hence, I become strong but sadness remains a bit. The last time I met mulah Uda was during "the conversion to Muslim" event. Malam tuh, as usual, saya duduk sorang2. Dad blend with them. Saya duduk khemah sebelah whilst they were on the other side of the khemah.

Mengenangkan malam ituh, saya rasa menyesal. After that event, selepas semua orang habis makan. As usual, mulah Uda approached me and again asked me the same things. I wasn't in mood at that time. So saya jawab dengan selamba jer lahhh. I didn't know that will be the last time I talked with him. :'( Itulah, kematian tak kan pernah di jangka. Sometimes, we have to be ready at any times. Ajal maut di tangan Allah. For me, he is still young. Umur 40+ masih, leaving wife and children. I am worried about them. None of his children yet has driving license. Bagaimana nanti mereka nak pergi sekolah and all. So minda ku terus jadi kucar kacir. Mungkin ada juga hikmah nya nanti.

Hati tak tahan nak sambung kisah ini lagi lahhh. Gotta stop typing now. My last word: life is a test, deal with it. Never regret anything that you had done cus its an experience. ^^

What can I do?

Virgo Itu Aku!

Officially launched 15th June 2011. Apa sebenarnya yang ku inginkan? Why do I have to create this blog? Well, I am currently on semester-break, memang lahhh enjoy! Tapiii... Paham2 jer lahhh. -.-" When the time comes, you will eventually find yourself at nowhere but in a lonely place. >.<"""

Simple jer. Memang lahhh I already have a blog but for me itu zaman kanak2 kot. The purpose I created new blog ni pun pasal nak tukar image baru. HEEE! Lagipun, bila baca balik blog lama tuh, segan lahhh. Even nak tell you guys the link of my old blog pun dah malu. -.-" It quite fortunate for those who knows my old blog tapiii tolong lahhh yer. Jangan bongkar kan link tuhhh. Malu! T.T

Hmmm. I'm running out of words. Dah takder idea nak kongsi. So, nak stop kat sini jer lahhh. Just a reminder, this gonna be a Malay-English blog. So beware, pusing kepala nak baca ini blog. My blog, sesuka hati aku lahhh. HEEE! Ayt then. See you again readers! Nanti ada update, saya bagi tau lahhh. No worries. Facebook will always help me to notify you guys! My last word: live your life to the fullest and enjoy! ^^